I like family guy.
I was going to post about how good I felt and how happy I felt. But my internet has been fucking up today and it took me ages to just come to this page so now im pissed and frustrated. thanks
At the moment Im tired to an extend I can hardly explain. And my train leaves in one hour.
Last night was fun, had a few beers, did a little dancing, met some people, the usual stuff. I stayed over at Johans and there was good stuff on TV so I didnt fall asleep until 5 and my mom picked me up at 10.30. I could fall asleep anywhere at the moment.
I have mixed emotions about going back home. Most of them are affected by the fact that Im just lazy. One part of me wants to stay because its comfortable to stay at my moms, with no worries and food everyday. But, Im bored all the time. Going out is not exciting. But atleast I have Johan. At home every night out is an adventure, and theres always things to do and people to hang out with. But right now Im just thinking about the train ride, then having to change to a bus because the railroad is closed off (and I dont even know if I can bring my dog on the bus, so I might get stuck). And then take the tram or bus from the trainstation home. I know its easy and It doesnt take many minutes but at the moment everything seems too difficult to do. God how beautiful sleep would be.
Now I better get ready. Sigh. This was just one big rant haha.
It started with 2, then I got carried away.
My mood at the moment would probably be best described at devious. Atleast I felt like that before, maybe not so much anymore.
Im in so much pain its unfair. Every muscle in my body is aching and nothing is comfortable and therefor its pretty hard to relax. It pretty much sucks. One part of my arm is just, you touch it and you will die. Thats for sure.
Yesterday was fun. It had the right amount of fun and a little dash of evil in it. Just the way I like it. Sure just sitting around drinking beer has kind of lost its charm in this city. Dont get me wrong, its nice and I wouldnt pass on it. But its just not… a thrill so to speak.
Probably going back to Gothenburg tomorrow. Im not sure how I feel on it. I dont want to stay here but it feels like I have nothing to go to in Gothenburg either, you know? Im just stuck inbetween. God I swim in selfpity when it comes to this. But Im going to stick by it. Everybody wants to feel wanted or missed. So its pretty natural.
I am tired. And I am bored. The natural thing would be to go to sleep. But its 10pm and its still too early for me, plus Im not in the bored kind that I want to go to sleep. Im the kind of bored where I want to do something but I just dont know what. Play a game or photoshop or some other way to be creative. But I cant think of any because Im too tired. Damnit.
This turned out to be insanely boring so Ill just post some pictures from this weekend.
It was really not one of my best looking weekend Ill say. Oh well
Just as I was going to start writing here, my mind went blank. Inside something is sisseling..a feeling of annoyance, “I should have known better than to think otherwise” kind of thing. I really do think I have the potential to be a serial killer. No joke. I mean who doesnt, thinking of how people treat eachother these days, how friends treat eachother. One day, one beautiful day.
Anyway, moving on 
I really just wanted to post this.
Its justs, amazing. The big eyes, the shoes…oh yes. And for some reason it totally reminds me of true blood. Is that just me or is anyone else feeling it?
I really hope tomorrow will be fun. I really do need it. The time Ive spent back home hasnt really been, fun. Thats not how I want to remember it. I dont want to think I dont want to visit because its so fucking lame here. So it better be good. ya hear me?
peace.
Yesterday we went to see “This is it”, the movie about Michael Jackson and the preparation for his last tour. Its not a movie I would have gone to see if I got to choose, but we were with my brother and his family and he wanted to take me and my mom there for our birthdays (mine was 2 months ago but still). Not too excited about it we sat down to watch it. Im not gonna say it sucked, because it didnt. I wont say it was awesome either. It was nice, I guess. It was interesting to see the myserious man in action and see him as a person etc. Even though I have to say that I wanted to have seen a little more than just his moves on the stage. Oh well. Atleast Ive seen it now.
But there was something in the movie that caught my attention. MJ was talking about how he thinks the planet is trying to repair all the damage us humans have done to it. I do think thats very true. With the natural disasters and the wierd diseases. I mean, birdflu and swineflu? With the technology that we have and a flu can kill us? It makes sense, the earth is fighting back. People have been taking it for granted and ruined it in more ways than you can imagine. Sure Im no environment idealist, I dont do half as much as I wish I did. But if I can realize this, sure will others. Maybe when its too late…
On another note. I kind of miss gothenburg. Just the fact that its so much more fun to go out there, I like my friends overthere, I like the fact that you dont always know whats gonna happen. And I definitely like that its not always the same thing and same people over and over again. I just wish there was something in gothenburg that missed me back. Maybe eventually there will be. Now Im gonna make my special delicious salad for my mother. God its going to be sooo good.
I dont know whats going on with me lately. I seem to be drifting into some kind of fantasy world. Im having crushes on the wierdest “people”. I mean, Ive always wanted what I cant have but this is just pure stupid. First we have a character in a book. yes, you read it right. If you havent watched the series “true blood”, Its basically about a girl who reads minds and dates a vampire and get twisted into all this vampire shit. Well, I started reading the books before I saw it, and the books are truly amazing and you get so sucked into it and you get stuck. I love them. Unfortunately I watched the series, and it completely sucked. They changed just about everything, added and removed. Plus the girl who plays the…well girl. She sucks. I hate her acting, she totally ruins it. Bitch.
Anyway, a character in the book, named Eric Northman. That would be the one I started talking about. Hes described as an evil, pretty cruel, strong minded, stubborn, tall, intense, sexy and perfectly built man. He is played by Alexander Skarsgård, whom everyone in sweden knows who it is obviously. But there is something about his character in the books that makes me mad that its not real.
Then there was this dude who was on the show for 2 minutes tops. He was just the worlds attractiveness in one body and with that vicious ruthless look.
The latest one would be Elly Jackson. Shes the girl who sings the song I posted yesterday. Dont know what this would be but its not like Im picking them on free will. Trust me, if I was I wouldnt be choosing people that doesnt even exsist.
But then again, Ive always falled in love with people who seems difficult near impossible to be with. I guess life is just too boring for me so I have to go and make it difficult all the time. Its going to be fun to see what wierd obsticle comes between me and my next one. If its not Elly jackson that is.
Currently La Roux - Bulletproof is blasting trough my speakers
I have an urge to just burst out and sing a long, but since my mom is sleeping in the next room Im pretty sure that would be a bad idea.
I took a very impulsive trip back to my hometown on wednsday. Maybe not so impulsive after all, my internet and phone died suddenly and without warning. I knew it was going to but I expected some kind of warning, which I didnt get. So that was kind of a panicky moment when you suddenly cant contact anyone and no one can contact you. Its strange how the world is so dependant on these things. Atleast I am. I freaked out in a very apathetic way. But my mom told me to come home a little earlier than planned, and so I did. So here Ive been.
The entire week Ive heard comments like “didnt you move?”. Yes, yes I did. And Ive been gone like a month, but people still think they just saw me. Im taking it as a compliment but its still kind of odd when you hear it from more than one or two people.
At the club tonight, we got to hear (by request ofcourse) Bad romance by Lady gaga for the first time out. We being me and Johan, the gaga fanatics. It was fun but for some reason Swedens second biggest nightclub has some kind of thing going on so they cant play the music as loud as they used to. It sucked. Youre not supposed to be able to talk to eachother on the dancefloor without yelling. But it was still awesome.
Im quite exited since Ive now fixed my internet. And its a muuuch faster internet then the snail shit I had before. Granted it was free before but still. So Ive been downloading movies and stuff to left and right and now my harddrive is full… stupid. I dont know why a fast internet makes me excited. Stupid me and my secret passion for technology stuff.
Im gonna stop rambling now, and watch something. Probably another episode of True Blood.
mmmmmmmmmm…..Röyksopp - happy up here. happiness in a song.
Its a strange thing, getting told someone you know has been brutally murdered. Its not like you could ever expect it, I mean atleast I thought the closest thing I would come to a thing like that is TV. But in a second, youre thrown in an episode striaght out of CSI.
Maybe youve heard about a man being murdered in gothenburg, being tied up and stabbed until he blead to death. If you can read swedish read here: http://www.gt.se/nyheter/1.1766271/tre-greps-for-krogmordet. Just reading that again made me feel really wierd. I had met hit almost every day for the past week or two and he was a really nice man. I was supposed to start working for him just this week. This is all just so fucked up. I dont think I have realized what had happened yet. He was friendly and had a very odd sense of humor. Im gonna think about something else now.
I just put up my speaker system. Its just for my computer but I fixed it so it works as a surround system and it also has a bassbooster that I put so its touching the couch so you get the most out of it. I got all excited when I first tried it out and patted myself on the back. I have also cleaned up my room today. There isnt much space to clear up but I did it atleast. Now its 4.18 pm and I just realized I have not had anything to eat yet. I better change that.
Lately it has come to my knowledge that I left even less in my old hometown than I thought. Its an interesting thing. I have the greatest ability in the world to seek out the worst friends or even more likely I think not a single person in that city knows what loyalty is. That I truly do believe.
But who cares. Good riddance I say. Ive lived in this city for maybe a month (shit thats longer than I thought) and My life is ever so much for fun and eventful. You dont have the option of 2 places when you go out haha. This saturday me and johnny went to this bar were Lycka works (around 9? Im not sure), met a few people we hanged out with for a few hours and drank the cheapest heineken ever, around midnight we went to a club to meet up with Pat and the others and had a blast. When they closed at 4 we went on (well johnny got kicked out haha) and we took a cab to avenyn to find a place that was still open. Found one and went in, then I dont even know what the hell we did in there, but I found Ewe for a few minutes until she ran away. Around 6 we went to a friends place and ate crackers and went to bed some time. That is madly different from how you party back in K-town I tell you.
First place
second place
third place
It was a very, very good night. And a little strange.
Now Im gonna find something to eat.
